"there will be no more winters, there will be no more spring"

We are winning battles,
but we are losing the war.

Do you still love him after 30 years?

Will you still love me after 30 years?

in a dream
i am lying in bed.

wide awake.

dreaming.

i do not eat food
,
only conversations

i dont actually know how any of this works

dine, ladders, schedules, films,

all i know is how to live

like this

that is all i know

hey: be a light, yes, but don't burn out!

Be a beacon :: Bring home the bacon

活著就是基督.

沒有一事叫我羞愧.

無論是生
是死

照
常
. 顯大

沒有一事

沒有一事

沒

有

一

事

無論是生是死
是死是生

照常顯大

工作是十字架的一部份。背起它吧。。

兒啊﹐你千萬不要離開基督。

[不是休閒時才背起十字架。]
為十架生。為十架死。

"這是天父世界﹐我心不必憂傷。"

i want to be a beacon to others

actually, that's not true

just a better conduit is enough

that is more than enough

disaster strikes. head/hat. pull up, pull up!!! /time.
i cant wait til the post mortem discussion.


Would I could afford to buy my love a fine gown
Made of gold and silk Arabian thread
But I am dead and gone and lying in the church ground
But still I push my barrow all the day

神沒有讓約伯死。
"我要活下去"

真正的信心是在飯桌下的.


我要花一生去向魔鬼報仇

sometimes when you are at a
urinal you can tell if the previous
user was drinking
coffee.

Every morning my horse passes by that train station.

I do not think about what might have been.

But only what not to think.

Dntel has a song called "Loneliness is Having No One to Miss"

-> Great title.

there are 497 fat crows standing on my front lawn

(i dont have a front lawn)

前幾日渣車見倒有個牌寫住 "人手洗車"

唔知點解 somehow 我 imagine 一部機器釣住好多隻斬了落黎的手臂
洗啊洗
洗啊洗

TO MY SOUL! I WILL NOT BE SHAKEN!

[this is the part where you think about the lyrics instead of simply moving your body and hit the people beside you] [altho that is fun]

is it a joyous song? deceptively so.

do u know how hard it is to declare these things?

love : satisfied, trust : justified, all my days.

it is a battle cry. battle cries have consequences and actions. we are not doing karaoke.

(i just learned this song it's pretty awesome)

but its an individualistic postmodern thing. you are taking authority away from the author/artist/creator, exploding the importance of the self, diminishing the authoritative voice. thats got serious implications if this is your way of living, esp if you are a Christian.

millay
or was it elizabeth bishop? i dont remember

has a poem about her lover leaving ["i lost a house, kingdoms" or something]

i learned it in poetry class

we were debating if the lover died or if just left her

i think it was about the lover deserting her

i told the prof

"even if millay was here telling me that the poem is about death it still doesnt change my opinion"

he told me "that's good, because you know what she wrote it a few months after her lover died"

that's called Reader Response theory i think.

doesnt matter how the author wrote it.